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Rowl and KI
mood: 
pissed off
pissed offI went to Kizmia's Island, took off my Catsbane Necklace because I was told to which I shouldn't have done because I got Lyfed, and helped in heading towards the north of the island. Each snell was packed with Lyfes and it took several retreats and fortifications with Zu to progress. We made it all the way up to the Sylvan Fighter snell and started dropping into trees. I was a bit worried whether the west side would make it without all falling since the spawns were so huge but they made it down okay. Once again we had to battle through every snell since the spawns were so great. I've never seen so many Cold Lyfelidae in my life. We then made it before the cave to the Lyfe village but I said that we sensed Rowl in the highest part of Kizmia's Island so shouldn't we go to the lake first? So we headed that way, facing more hordes of Lyfelidae and then made it to the lake. All was well at the lake when Rowl summoned dozens and dozens of Cold Lyfelidaes which surrounded us. A few of us managed to run back to the Kudzu fortress we made earlier but it wasn't secure and soon all of us fell except for Sor.
At this point, SWC wanted to step outside so I figured that I'd do that and return later. Well, I got taken to Growl's former sleeping cave just in time to hear that Rowl had been killed and the gem picked up by Lister of all people. I guess the rescue took a lot less time to get to us then I figured so even if I hadn't been taken to the underground cave I wouldn't have been able to catch up anyway. Besides, SnowLion killed Rowl in THREE hits so I wouldn't have been able to even attempt to hit him. To make matters worse I got to depart because everyone left to go to the library (gee, that was really swell of you all to just leave us like that) and I'm still Lyfed.
I know that I shouldn't have napped, but since it took all of us about 6 OOC hours to get to that point, I thought that SWC could do some badly needed chores and come back in about 1.5 OOC hours and not have missed anything. It was a calculated risk but I figured it was not a big one. I didn't know that the whole event would have been over in such a relatively short period of time.
I don't even know why I bothered. I should have listened to my initial thoughts, realized I would have nothing to contribute, and stayed in the comfort of the library. I think I only went because I didn't want Sor to think less of me but next time I'll think about myself first. I also shouldn't have listened to the people who told me to take my necklace off. The risk of getting Lyfed while falling was much greater than Rowl Lyfing us and once again I should have listened to what I thought was right. Considering I didn't even get to see Rowl, I doubt he would have had the chance to Lyfe me. I just figured they were the experts who knew stuff I didn't.
The overall conclusion is that I should do what I think is right, while still taking input from other people and listening to their opinions and being ready to change my course of action, but to have the confidence to disagree with them. After all, the person who is in charge of my own fate is me and I can't blame anyone else for what happens.
(Anonymous)
I think you did the right thing in both coming and removing your necklace. In retrospect, it's true that we could have kept necklaces on until meeting Rowl (if ever), but the infectious power of Lyfes was very strong and you may have had yours destroyed by 'normal' lyfes. It was a gamble but the odds were high for everybody to get lyfed eventually, and at least most of us don't have to get a new necklace on top of the cure.
You missing the last part and having to depart from caves was unfortunate really, bot so was it for several of us who had to leave the island early, or departed to organize the second wave. Frankly I was surprised that we could pull up such a solid rescue in so little time. As much was I amazed at how long the raid lasted, and the fact that it *ended* -- we killed Rowl. A few brave souls of us did gather in cove for your rescue, but so many people were tired and left that we just were not enough for caves.
The following is more in reply to the previous entry :
You are being unfair with Yor NB etc. If they happen to be involved in more plots than you, it's not entirely due to better timings, and certainly not to favoritism from above. They just clan a lot, and are always up to something. It's really a matter of mindset, they aim for things that are a bit, if not much, over their heads -- and that's how they progress too. I have yet to hear from those people that "they don't go there because they can't hit" or something! You know my stance, "Want fun, make it happen". When Yor is in the lands, you can bet that he's either organizing or taking part in something somewhat challenging. For the few special events that occur over a year, that's A LOT of organizing.
When I saw how many people came to our rendez-vous, and how many Lyfes were waiting for us, I had the feeling that this would be a memorable event and that we had a good chance of taking Rowl down that day -- that's why I pressed you to get involved. There was your chance at a special event. If you still think that this "Rowl chase" was a negative experience, I don't know what will make you happy :(
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Sor
You’re right. Everyone worked together to lift the heavy load of Kizmia’s Island’s insane spawns that night and I shouldn’t say that I didn’t do anything. I think I kept my falls to a minimum and I helped kill a lot of Lyfes so saying that I didn’t do anything is just pointless beating up on myself. Even though I wasn’t there at the end, I was there at the beginning and that does count for something.
I think you did the right thing in both coming and removing your necklace.
True, it was a gamble either way. Either take off the necklace and risk getting infected when falling or keep the necklace on and risk getting infected and losing the necklace which is very costly to replace. So looking at the two choices taking the necklace off was the better choice.
A few brave souls of us did gather in cove for your rescue, but so many people were tired and left that we just were not enough for caves.
I’m not angry at you or anyone else at my decision to leave. I knew that I was taking a calculated risk in that I would miss the last half of the raid and that the no-depart makro would fail and I would probably depart off the island. Not getting rescued did urk me a bit but after such a long time on Kizmia’s Island I can understand why it was impossible to get anyone to go back there for another round of fighting Lyfes. Actually, I was upset at myself for leaving and if I had known I should have stayed I would have.
The following is more in reply to the previous entry.
I never said they had any favoritism or had better timings merely that I missed their trip to the Lyfe caves because I have bad timing and I was taking a nap when they were out adventuring. Not that I would have been able to go with them but I would have asked and hoped for the best.
As to not complaining about being or not being able to hit stuff from Yor and Nightbird, it’s probably because they have enough Atkus so they don’t whiff constantly as I used to do before getting 300 Atkus or they have enough defense so they can brick what they can’t hit and still contribute which I can’t. When I had 250 Atkus I didn’t like going to the Valley because I couldn’t hit anything and I couldn’t brick anything and it was difficult to tag anything and I didn’t find the experience fun. If I wanted to sit on the sidelines and watch as everyone else fought I would have become a healer or a mystic. Now that I have 300 Atkus going to the Valley has finally become, as you put it, “a bit over my head” and something I can enjoy doing.
If you still think that this "Rowl chase" was a negative experience, I don't know what will make you happy :(
On the one hand, I am happy at having any chance at participating in an event that’s out of the ordinary and I did have a good time at helping out in killing all those Lyfes. So I’m glad you convinced me to come along and when I take a look at the raid with a different perspective then when I wrote the journal entry I would do it again. On the other hand, I’m upset at myself for leaving early and in getting Lyfed and in not being able to participate fully in any of the other events surrounding Rowl. In the face of all of the chances I had to participate but missed and in not contributing a lot on the raid I just wondered why I bothered when I could have been selfish, stayed home, and not suffered any negative implications.
I think that I should be happy just to be included in a group and not desire to be one of the essential fighters. That would make me happy but it seems that it’s not going to happen so I should look on what I am able to do and focus on doing what I am able to do as well as I can and not on what I’m unable to do. I think if I do this I will be happier overall and not desire what I won’t be able to achieve.
Thanks for writing Sor and I promise to change my attitude. I shouldn’t have let the conversation with Lister put a damper on the raid and next time I won’t leave before the event’s over. I’ll also write an entry about this so I hope that I can be more clear on this.